I find it absolutely impossible to describe how it feels. I actually don’t think there are any feeling words that come anywhere near how it really feels. I thought I would try a few words that we all know from the Oxford dictionary.
- excruciating (intensely painful)
- unbearable (not able to be endured or tolerated)
- unimaginable (difficult to imagine or comprehend)
- torturous, agonizing, distressing………
The above words come close. Here are some more:-
- heart-breaking
- sadness
- uncomfortable
- tormenting
These words are just gliding over the spot so I decided to make up some of my own:-
- screaminginsideness
- heartsickeningness
- cannotgoonness
- lifesuckedoutofmeness
- inconsolableful
- wedon’tmoveonable
- Iamnotbraveness
- Ihavenochoiceful
C S Lewis wrote….
When I think of my early stages of grief, it was like I was drowning – I am actually scared of deep water, so yes I was really frightened. Every few breaths resulted in retching and throwing up nothing. I went to be sick so many times, I should have just stayed on the sofa and heaved. In fact, that’s what I ended up doing. Breathing? Was I? How did I manage that?
If you are reading this, you are either a bereaved mum or interested in bereavement per se, so I wonder if you have any of your own words to describe such a terrible loss.
What do you think of what C S Lewis wrote about?
